Reason

One day you’ll find yourself at a loss, feeling incomplete or at a crisis. You don’t know why but you just feel it. Then, something will happen. A lot of questioning and processing will occur: is this it? is this the answer or is this the missing piece of the puzzle? Initially the answer maybe yes because it seems to happen at the right time. You enjoy the euphoria until one day you wake up realizing that it’s about to end. Then you ask yourself again, why?

I don’t know the answer but one thing I’m sure of, there is always a reason why it has to happen. But that reason may not be what we want or it may take some time to discover it.

Ironic

I woke up feeling great today but not that energized to do work. Ironic? Hmmm..let's put it this way. Physically I feel like I lost some lbs. (just a feeling and I'm not sure about that), I'm now back to dancing (a passion that will never change till the day I die) and it also felt great spending time with family yesterday. However, there will always be 'kontribidas' in life and right now that is work :-)

I usually do my weekly activity planning every Sunday but yesterday I chose not to. I was given a task/project which I'm not sure and dont even know where to start. I'm so clueless!!!! If and only if I can just avoid it. But noooo!!!! I have to deliver it. Being positive, I like to psych my self "Rena, this will make you a better person. You will learn a lot of things and that will make you saleable...hehehe"

*Sabi ko na nga ba, I'm in the wrong profession. Dapat nag-dancer na lang ako*

Oakwood activity

Frustrated cheerdancers? That's me, Camille and Cathy while we're attending our team planning/goal-setting for 2006. Is this part of the activity? ...nuninuninu...

After

....and what a relief after :-)

Day/night

Working on different shifts can sometimes be a pain in the ass. Sometimes I'd like to ask myself, "Isn't this person thinking when s/he sent out the email?" (1) the person is aware that we are not on the same schedule (2) is also aware that the 'activity' is urgent

Oh well, I'm okay if the activity will not push through. That means, I have my Friday night free and I can spend time going around the mall and shop!

Relaxing or stressful?

Going on a vacation is supposed to be relaxing however lately, I can feel the stress in planning and coordinating this 'event.' Dont get me wrong, I actually enjoy doing it, it's just my schedule that does not permit me to do so. I'm an OC person that's why I want to have a hands-on on these matters.

If this pushes through I will really make sure I'll enjoy every second of it. Just the thought of being there excites me, regardless of who I'm with. I just hope I get confirmations tom.