Alone

One struggle I have to face every now and then is being alone. Yes, literally all by myself.

I grew up with my sister who is only one year older. We are so close and just like ordinary siblings, we spent most of our time together doing the same stuff. So when she left for college, it was really heartbreaking for both of us. Seeing her only every weekend was my outmost joy. When she graduated and started working, everything went back to normal. Then, here comes the day she decided to settle down and have her own family. That was again another struggle for me. I had a boyfriend then but things didn't work out well so I felt like I was really left all alone. That was a turning point. All my life, I am used to having someone beside me. It was a struggle just going to a grocery store, eating outside, going to malls alone.

Eventually, I got used to it and now I'm so proud to say that I am less dependent than I was 4 years ago. But I have to admit something...it's not really easy being alone. You wouldn't believe this but even at work, I experience it. The environment in my first job -- it was like a family. We're one big group always together. When I transferred to a new job, I was the only person in the team doing the said function. Therefore, I was alone again. There were times I had to eat on my own simply because I came from a meeting or I have work engagements and the rest of the team are together or at least, those with the same functions go together. You may say what's the big deal, everyone experiences this? I don't know but I guess it's still something I have to deal with.