Retrospect

There are a lot of things I've been thinking of these past few days. I am the type who does a lot of 'giving feedback' to myself. I really spend time looking at the things I wrote, things I said I want to accomplish and if I see that these things are not happening then I would ask myself why and try to look back - what have I done?

This is a tiring exercise -- Christian would always say mentally draining. I remember in my friendster account, someone gave that testimonial to me. That I tend to ask a lot of 'why' and I really dont stop until I get the answer.

For several years doing this exercise, there are some discoveries:

1 - There are questions that will be left unanswered even how hard you try.

2 - I agree that sometimes only time can tell (answer) some of these questions

3 - Stop looking at your circle of concerns (read: blaming others) why it didn't happen yet to widen the circle of influence (read: what I can do)

4 - Related to #3, being pro-active is very difficult. It really takes a lot of discipline to always remind yourself

5 - Be thankful for people who are willing to do some process-mapping with you :-)